BOYcotting

To preface this, refer to my prior post, "For REAL," September 1, 2010

I am BOYcotting.

I am coughing for the second time this season-very unusual considering that prior to my mission, I had been almost envious of those lung rattling coughers. I had never done it.

My sciatic nerve, or both sciatic nerves are freaking out.

I don't sleep.

I don't eat.

I don't go to the gym. I rarely go to yoga.

And I think it's because I don't know how to say no.

I am available emotionally to far too many people who are not always there in turn. Don't get me wrong, it can't always be give and take, nor should always be so. But I have far too many obligations in school, work, church, and social life. To maintain balance, to cultivate a healthy lifestyle, I have to choose who is well worth my investment. Boys just aren't well worth it right now. I can't do it anymore. I am tired. I am sorry.
Now friends, don't get me wrong, I am not shunning, severing or closing the door(I don't have the heart to do it). I am just being pretty bold in prioritizing and challenge you to do the same. If I don't make the cut, I am not offended. Some of you haven't made mine, simply because I don't feel I have made yours.
For those of you who make plans and follow through, who spend free time aiding me in my altogether chaotic antics and projects, who make sure I am eating when I get root canals and am coughing my lungs to pieces, or who are just present, thank-you. I am giving up some very important people, some very important obligations for YOU. Because you are important too. Because you have proven to be well worth my time and investment.
So here's to more heart and (hopefully) more time.